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am feeling flat n a bit down again... one of those times am hating being single and alone for so long... love seeing friends happy, be it because of love or relationships or just life or whatever... and wish all goodness to anyone I know, always... just isnt always easy to watch others with that when you have none of it yourself...

so what to do about it? will probably just end up sitting here feeling sorry for myself and bugging people til I piss them off... why do we do that to out friends, when we know we shouldn't? know friends are supposed to be there for you, just as I always am for those I care about...

why is it when we know its ridiculous to sit n mope n feel like this... when we know lifes not all that bad, that we arent all that bad, that our lives arent that bad, that things could be worse... that we should be happy and enjoy life n look up and forward... that we sit n mope n feel all down n morose anyway....

or maybe this is all just me... maybe am just tired and need more sleep... or maybe... fuck knows what else, what'll help...

aint life just a bitch at times...