I'm torn

I'm a bit tired of just sitting round the house, so part of me wants to get out for a few hours, maybe just jump in the car and go for a drive, enjoy some air and scenery and whatever...

but then I look at the weather website and see that its about 38-40c out there :-( and while it isnt exactly cold here inside, do I really want to go out and subject myself to that...

hmmm though down along the coast it looks like its bout 10 degrees cooler... maybe I'll just give it a few hours then head off for a drive along the coast...

Frustrations

Ok, I dont know right now whether I am rightfully frustrated and annoyed, or if I'm over-reacting and being stupid, or what...

Have some friends I go out with occasionally, used to be every few months or so we'd go into the city to our usual pub there (E&W for any locals) for a night out... havent dont it in a while, due to relationships and marriage preps etc... and the fact thast yeah with most of that group I am probably not as in the group, just close to only one or two... L is the one I know and have known for a few years and am friends with, the others are mostly her fiancée and all guys he works with or has worked with up on the mines and their partners etc... they as a group are closer and do more things together, dinners etc, mostly couples etc, the usual stuff...

Anyway early last week I caught up with L online, and she mentioned they were considering heading into town this weekend so to keep things free if interested... so I said sure, np, just let me know when its all decided... hadnt heard anything back all week, until I e-mailed her something else on Friday, and when she replied to that i then asked what was happening... to then be told "oh no one of the other guys has decided he's going to have a bbq instead, so we're going there"...

Now at that time I was a little pissed... not so much for not being invited to the BBQ and part of that, more so about waiting to hear back, having to chase her up, to find out other plans had been made, that she didn't even think about letting me know til I asked... and she had been online while i was on msn the few days in between, including thursday night, though we hadnt chatted...

but thinking on it over the weekend, was trying to work out why i was feeling annoyed and frustrated, and whether it was legitimate... partly I think I'm feeling like a hanger on, a fringe friend who's invited to and included in some things (and this was the same group I was out with on NYE so not as if am never included) but not in others... invited as an after-thought, to be allowed to tag along sometimes... or maybe its just the fact i wasnt kept up to date on whats happening and told thats really brought that on, and even with that am over-reacting, and she may have just been busy/forgot...

But I think the one thing i decided on was that i do need to find other friends, or social outlets, besides just waiting on the occasional night with this group and going out to watch my brothers band... not to replace those, but to just add to and give me more social outlets, and not leave me feel so frustrated... I guess thats part of growing into situations where all your single friends change to couples with friends as couples and/or kids or whatever, and a lack of single friends...

or maybe I just need to stop whining and accept that things sometimes fall down... lol

{edit} because i forgot to add the next part of the story...

I did get an e-mail today saying "as some of us discussed last night, the plan is to go into town on Australia day night to the E&W"...

thats part of what added to the hanger on feeling noted above... setting aside all the issues i saw with heading into the city with all the chaos and craziness of the hundreds of thousands in there for the sky show... but guess i should just feel glad to be asked and included huh? *S*