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slyyderIt's always good to feel acknowledged and appreciated :-) and with all the birthday wishes I have been getting today have certainly been feeling that... while trying to stay focussed on that and not feel all of my 39 years LOL
It's interesting, and good, and made me look around and appreciate the great people I have around me now :-) some closer than others, some face to face, some online only, but all great and special and meaningful in their own way :-)
and certainly different from where I used to be and how I used to feel... especially going back 5+ years ago, where I'd got myself into a safe quiet isolated rut, just go to work, go home and sit online, not really get out and about and socialise... one of those places where even though you know you are not feeling fulfilled, feeling alone and isolated, its sometimes easier to stay in that safe rut than to take the risks and chances to push yourself out of it.
I think where the down side of that really hit home though was one year where I think I got more birthday messages and congrats from automated messages from say forums, groups, message boards etc that I was a member of, than I did from actual real personal people and friends... that was a bit of a slap in the face that things were a little out of whack from what they should be
But no, this year, as in the last few, has been great, plenty of good friends and casual aquaintainces to chat with and share with and celebrate with, not just on today but all year round
So, in case I don't say it enough, thank you to all of you, those I know well, those I am getting to know, those who may just flitter by on the edges.. you are all appreciated and I am glad to have you around :-)
It's interesting, and good, and made me look around and appreciate the great people I have around me now :-) some closer than others, some face to face, some online only, but all great and special and meaningful in their own way :-)
and certainly different from where I used to be and how I used to feel... especially going back 5+ years ago, where I'd got myself into a safe quiet isolated rut, just go to work, go home and sit online, not really get out and about and socialise... one of those places where even though you know you are not feeling fulfilled, feeling alone and isolated, its sometimes easier to stay in that safe rut than to take the risks and chances to push yourself out of it.
I think where the down side of that really hit home though was one year where I think I got more birthday messages and congrats from automated messages from say forums, groups, message boards etc that I was a member of, than I did from actual real personal people and friends... that was a bit of a slap in the face that things were a little out of whack from what they should be
But no, this year, as in the last few, has been great, plenty of good friends and casual aquaintainces to chat with and share with and celebrate with, not just on today but all year round
So, in case I don't say it enough, thank you to all of you, those I know well, those I am getting to know, those who may just flitter by on the edges.. you are all appreciated and I am glad to have you around :-)
